Prayers needed please….

Hello,
Well I am in the waiting room waiting to start chemo today. I had 2 arguments with the resident and with my oncologist saying that I have to be able to have another child after all of this. I know I will become bitter if I can only have Max.

My oncologist has said that she thinks there is a good chance that I still have lymph nodes left over from the chemo. I am going to be having a CT scan 2 weeks from Friday (assuming I can make the appointment then) and if there is anything left, I will have to have radiation. This will mean (very likely) that I will not be able to have another child on my own (or get my embryos unless we use a gestational carrier).

This I am not at all prepared for. Of coarse I want to be around for a long, long time for Max. However I see babies E, G, H, I and J as my children just as much as Christopher, Alexander, Emily, Baby D, and Maximillian.

I know all the fine people that followed our story with Emily prayed long and hard for our daughter and we believe that it was this that gave us the 5 glorious months with her. Now I need more prayers so that we can give Babies E, G, H, I, and J a chance.

Thank you!