Our ultrasound today…

Well I wish I had good news today. We had our ultrasound today and there was no heartbeat detected. It seems we lost, what we will always refer to as “baby D”, around the 9 week mark.

I will be having a procedure done that may be able shed some light on if this was chromosomal or not but end the end, like why I had the problems with the triplets, we may never know. I do not know when this procedure will be done but it will be within the next week.

For those who don’t know me that well I should say that this is my first miscarriage. My first pregnancy was the triplets. I must say that the experiance of loosing this child, at least so far, is not as bad as loosing our children that we could hold and care for. We will see what tomorrow brings though.

When Emily died I focused on my next step to having a take home child. This death is no different. I am focused on what I need to do to get pregnant again. I believe that I am leaning to doing IVF again since we only have one frozen embryo. Not all embryo’s survive the thawing process and I worry that with just one that I may not have any to transfer.

Well that is all I have for now. It may be a while till I post again since I am not sure where I am going at this point other into another long and protracted waiting game. With any luck though we will have a child before we have a new president in this country though. Which when you think about it is rather sad!

Jennifer

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18 Comments

  1. Rowena

    Oh Jennifer, I am so sad for you and Tony. My heart goes out to you both. I so admire your courage and determination to be focused on the future. I will be praying for both of you as you make decisions for what to do next.

    Take care and may you experience the peace that only God can provide. Rowena

  2. Anonymous

    Jennifer and Tony,

    Words can not express how sorry I am. May God comfort you during this most difficult time.

    Jill

  3. a stranger

    we don’t know each other, but please accept my sincere condolences on the loss of your baby. I am so sorry.

  4. Anonymous

    I am so sorry. I have been following your story since Emily was in the NICU and I was very excited for you & Tony and this pregnancy. I was hoping it would bring you healing.

    As someone who has gone through IVF and a miscarriage I know a bit of what you are going through and I wouldn’t wish that on anyone. I will check back often and look forward to hearing what your future plans are. You WILL have children.

  5. I am so sorry for the loss of your little one… I pray that they will find out what is going on for you. I picked up your baby Emily’s site from Asher’s and have been praying for you and been so excited for you…Take care and good luck. Wendy

  6. Jenn and Tony
    I am so sorry. I know exactly what you are feeling. I took both of my miscarriages very hard. Call me if you need to talk.
    Love you
    Julie

  7. I am so sorry for your loss. It seems so unfair after all you’ve been through. You will remain in my prayers.

    I believe with all my heart you and Tony will be parents to a “take home” child, though it seems the road there will take a bit longer than we all had hoped. Rest easy, and don’t lose hope.

  10. We are so very, very sorry for you and Tony. We wish we could say something or do something more that would make things better.

    Abby, Sharon, and Hallie

  13. Jennifer-
    I know that no words I say will make your loss any easier on you, but I am thinking of you at this difficult time, and praying for another miracle. I know in my heart that you will someday have a healthy happy baby in your arms.

  14. Anonymous

    You dont know me and I don’t know how I heard about your site (maybe Friends of Allie site)…in any case I am so sorry hear about your loss. I too, lost a baby at 16 weeks of pregnancy. Like you we saw a heart beating and used that as reassurance that all was good. If I can just give you one piece of advise, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ask them for one final picture of your baby. You may not think anything about it now, but down the road you will wish you had that one last photo.
    Take Care and know your in my prayers!
    Stacy

  15. Oh Jennifer I’m so sorry to hear this…

    I wish you peace and comforting during this time.

    Please know you have many many people wishing only the best for both of you.

  17. Anonymous

    Jennifer and Tony… my heart breaks for you and this loss. I just don’t know what else to say other than I’m so very sorry.

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