Tomorrow we are going to do a review of Max’s school work. It is the 20th lesson and this is part of the curriculum. So one of the things I did was put words on paper so when Max is playing in the basement we can ask him concepts to see if he is getting it. He seems to be getting more then I thought the last few days so that is good. We went to Lakeshore Learning Center and got him a few items that are really helping with his hand strength for things like writing. So that is good.
Switching gears…
If you have been following this blog for a while you know that I keep politics off of it. I honestly haven’t been following the news much lately. For some strange reason this week I started listening a bit to Glenn Beck when Max plays. I listen for maybe an hour as that is all I really have time for. Today I had a bit more time and I listened for a bit longer. That is when I heard him tell the story of this young man who died on Christmas Day this past year (about a month ago). He said that he had made a video and that it was very powerful and inspiring. I am sorry but this is on The Blaze as I didn’t know where else to find it.
I don’t see this as political (though Glenn Beck is VERY political). To me this just tells me that some of the things I saw in the last moments of my children’s lives really did have meaning and wasn’t random. It was very clear that Alexander died with a smile on his face and we have thought that Emily died when she heard us all laughing. She was on muscle relaxers when she died so we wouldn’t have seen her smile even if she could.
I would be lying if I didn’t say that I felt a bit selfish after seeing this video though. Both Alexander and Emily were coded (died then brought back) at least once before they ultimately died. I know we did what we felt we had to do and I know Alexander REALLY just wanted me to hold him once. So I know I shouldn’t feel guilty but there is a part of me that does after seeing this. At least this tells me that all of them (Christopher, Alexander, Emily and Baby D) are all happy. And ultimately I think that is all we can ask for as a parent.