The last week

This is in New York outside Lake Placid.
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This is Lake Champlain looking at Vermont.
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This is the Trapp Family Lodge, in Stow, Vermont. (Trapp Family is what the movie/play Sound of Music is based.)
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Hello,

Well I decide to include some of the pictures that we took while on our trip. I hope you enjoy them. We have went back to church on Sunday. Which was weird to me since I haven’t been there since June of 2006. Since then I have decided to go to church everyday and that is what I have been doing. Mass in the morning is different then on Sunday. It is VERY quick and normally only last about 30 minutes. Today they didn’t even have a sermon! I get the feeling that it is a bit rushed and routine. Which to me is sad.

Other then that not much is happening here. I have felt like someone put me in the middle of a gigantic frozen lake and I am just sliding everywhere. I walk around kind of dazed and confused. That is one of the reasons why I am going to church everyday now. I need some direction. I have tried to get back to my prepregnancy diet that I know I need to be on to have more children but I don’t think I am 100% ready for that yet. Also I find myself doing things that don’t really need to be done but I am making them big deals so I am getting them done. For instance I have had a sewing machine that hasn’t worked since we lived in Cambridge. I took it in the other day and it was determined that it will cost about the same amount to fix it as it would be to get a new one. I haven’t thrown it out yet as I feel weird doing that when I don’t have a replacement, yet it doesn’t work so I don’t need it, and I am questioning how much I really need a sewing machine all together now.

Tony’s parents are coming out tomorrow for 4 days. Perhaps I will be able to write something about that in a couple of days.

That is about all the news I have for now. I will write more if I think of something.

Jennifer

7 Comments

  1. Rowena

    Hi Jennifer and Tony.

    The pictures you took on your trip are beautiful. Thank you for sharing them.

    It’s nice that you are going to church everyday Jennifer. I hope that the quiet time will give God a chance to bring some peace and healing to your heart. I hope you won’t be too hard on yourself these next few weeks/months. You and Tony have been through more sadness than most of us go through in a lifetime. I continue to pray for you often.

    It’s nice that Tony’s parents are coming for a visit. Do they visit often?

    Take care. Rowena

  2. Jennifer,

    I am so glad to hear that you are going to church. I hope it gives you peace. I think about you often and I continue to pray for you and Tony to have the strength that you need right now.

    Take care,
    Shannon

  3. I am thinking of you daily, Jen. Thank you for the new blog. I am glad that you have found church as a way to stay still on your “lake in life” for at least a short time. The pictures of your trip are gorgeous. I would love to go to those places someday. Maybe you can take other trips soon and post those pictures as well! Your family continues to remain in my prayers. I would love to e-mail you. Please send me your e-mail if you feel like it. Mine is: [email protected]
    Kristina in GA

  4. Hi Jennifer and Tony,

    Rowena said everything I want to say so well, so I hope you don’t mind if I just second what she said. Thank you for sharing the lovely pictures.

    Thinking of you everyday!

    Love,
    Susan

  5. Anonymous

    I had been following your story through someone else’s blog, but wanted to reach out to you.

    I lost 3 babies over a 3 year time period … two were in NICU situations, one was a stillbirth. If you should need a friendly ear, a sounding board or advice, please don’t hesitate to contact me.

    It’s been 14 months since our most recent loss, but I can assure you that there is hope. It sounds like you are beginning in the right place!

    My blog is infantloss.blogspot.com or you can e-mail me at [email protected].

    Hugs,
    Sharee

  6. Jennifer,

    I was glad to see the pictures from your trip (though it is odd about how there’s no snow at all this season in parts even north of here). Please be good to yourself and give yourself the time and space to heal. I think that going to church is great (though, I agree it is sad that daily mass is rushed). But at least I hope that the experience of being in church is a peaceful one. I know that we cannot even begin to relate to everything that you have experienced, but I do want you to know that you and Tony are very much in our thoughts and prayers and that we are hoping that this year brings solace, healing, and renewal.

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